FUN

THAT is what I had at prom. Lots of fun. I've got to admit the banquet hall wasn't exactly spacious, but it served it's purpose. It had a decent dance floor with strobe lights and a disco ball, and enough room for over 80 adolescents.
To summarize my day up til then, it was school, leave early, get my hair and nails done by a woman who's constantly scolding me for chewing on my nails (I can't help it!) and then get dressed and do my makeup. My mom drives me to the hall, and takes numerous pictures of me and my date (who was looking very nice in all black and a red tie) before finally leaving. Once inside, I was disappointed by the music, wishing I had brought my ipod to hook up to the laptop when no one was looking. To the tune of some cheesy song, we took some more pictures while people arrived. And then some amazing music started churning out of the speakers, to my extreme relief. I started bouncing in place while my friends arrived, an as soon as enough of them were there we hit the dance floor, partying hard. We were briefly interrupted by dinner and a slideshow of this years pictures and then we were immediately dancing again after the water works ended. Let me tell you, some of my most innocent-looking friends can get down and dirty. Everyone danced and danced til sweat covered they're skin and the dance floor was slippery with a mixture of sweat and soda. I actually slipped and fell down a couple down a few times getting low, which was hilarious. It was the perfect environment, all the bodies pressing close, the heat just below suffocating, the lights flashing to the music. It made you not care, and more free about dancing in slightly inappropriate ways (which was friggin awesome!). I'm always going to remember prom and I'm gonna miss you guys!

Iron Man 2

I don't want to ruin it for anyone who hasn't seen it yet, but that was AWESOME!!!! The action, the music... It was just as good as the first one!
I went to see it yesterday with melly, ricardo, robert and his cousins, shawn and alejandro. If I forgot someone, I'm sorry, it's just that I'm posting this a bit early in the morning.
Just a few updates, went to miami seaquarium on thursday, on friday I got confirmed (YAY!), and saturday I went to see iron man 2 with the buddies.
Once again, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
(see what I did right there? Just stretched a 7 letter word into a... I'm-not-sure-how-many letter word. Yea.)
Love,
Vikki

didn't mean it that way..

About sam, she can believe what she wants and her statement wasn't what had been annoying me all day. It was something personal that I'm NOT talking about.
And about the other comments, it think i talked to a few of those people in school before I even knew those comments were posted about my behavior, which, to be honest, I do NOT have to explain myself to people who don't have the balls to put their name next to their comment. If you guys are my friends, tell me to my face, don't keep up the pretense. But, then again I may have already cleared this up with you and this post is LATE.
But back to Sam, you've got to admit, something like that might have made you question some stuff. It's nothing personal, but was it wrong for me to just want to try to justify what I've believed in all my life, just to reassure myself it's not all a waste of time? I didn't even talk to Sam about it, but this is my blog. I have a thought I want to write out and I come here to do so. I'm not trying to act all missionary and change any of YOUR beliefs. That explanation was mainly for me,and if it helped any one thats great, but not necessarily the point of the post.
Love,
Vikki
PS- I care, anonymous. My blog, remember?

Happyness

Yea, I spelled it wrong. But, anyway, went to animal kingdom yesterday and now my ankles are sore. How, exactly, does that happen, you may ask? By running around a freaking park for 4 hours non-stop. Oh well, for every happiness there's a price. For a whole day of happiness, the price apparently is aching muscles. I swear, if I did that every day, I'd look lke one of those body builders. shudder.
Well, I had a nice time. I got annoyed for a little while for reasons I'm not saying but I got over it. I refuse to waste my time on shit like that. It's pointless.
Something that got me thinking yesterday was when sam said that she had no religion, she just believed in a personal relationship with God. I couldn't think of a response to that. I KNOW religion is important, not to say I haven't question mine before, but how could I put that into words without sounding like, I don't know.. a stereotype, biased christian unaware of all the implications their religion comes with. I thought about it on the way home and my doubts manifested themselves in dreams. This morning after my last catechism class for the rest of my life, I found an answer. It might not erase all doubt as to religion's importance, but it's the best I can think of. God help me to write it down in a way you understand.
Religion is the term for a group of people believing one thing and it sets guidelines about how you practice. Unlike how sam put it, you shouldn't worship your religion, your religion is built around the deity you worship. It's a family of people who all share a common faith. The amounts of that and how you go about it is up to you, and if a member of that family falls into sin, you forgive and wait for them to come back with open arms, like you would a brother or sister. This is how my religion, at least, works. It's run by humans, thus there is corruption, but the religion doesn't change because a member does. Religion's main purpose is to bring you closer to God.
Did I say all of that right? I don't know. Take it as you will, but I hope it helps someone find some Happyness.
Love,
Vikki

Kinda Frustrating

Let me start by saying I'm having a bad day. A down day, a sad day. Not the "I can't talk 'cause my stupid depression isn't letting me" kind of day. But the kind of day that gets me so frustrated and anything ticks me off.
First, I forgot to do some project for English and after watching other people present theirs, I had to write a page long commercial. Then some kid (god bless his soul) comes up to me and says: "you didn't do it? Really? Wooow, vikki" I snapped back angrily and the poor kid just walked away.
Second, I spend an hour after school in the humidity with people who think I'm annoying or just a bee-otch instead of going to target with my mom to get a bathing suit, because I thought I was going to have fun. Yeah, right.
The-en, my mom picks me up and we can't go to target and she says something in a tone of voice that just snaps something inside of me. We get in an argument and in a flash my mom is NOT happy with me.
After aaall of this, my dad picks me up an we go to Morro for some dinner. I order a chocolate milkshake and sit there sipping while the restaurant's manager comes to talk with my dad. Somehow, there conversation turns to where they go to church and how some people they work with just "can't" find time for God. Then the manager says something that makes me stop sipping and just listen as a smile spreads on my face. He says "'Cause in everyones heart there's a little space like this-" he gestures with his fingers a space of a few centimeters,"that only Jesus can fill. Man, no matter how much money someone has, if they don't have God, there'll always be an empty space. Like.. Like a puzzle with a piece missing." Someone else called him over, and he shrugged before walking off. I don't think he'll ever know how much that statement impacted my day. It made me feel so much better, because by him saying that, I opened my heart. I stopped overthinking about my day and relaxed. I just thought those same words over and over in my head til it filled me and it washed my anger away. Thank you God.
Love,
Vikki

Whoa, I can blog in school...

This is amazing! I'm in Business Technology and I'm blogging away on my computer. Well.. Yea. Nothing important to talk about right now.
Love,
Vikki

Complications to my Simple life

One of my best friends asked me to prom. Of course I said yes, Rob's great and I know I can talk to him and have fun. Plus, the fact that we're going as friends is a stress reliever. It means I probably won't get all nervous or uptight. Probably.
Then again, I think I'm treating him a bit harshly. Sorry about that, I've been having that kind of week.
I totally told off my friend yesterday. The subject doesn't matter, and whether I had cause or not, I shouldn't have exploded on her. We did, however, make up in the same conversation.
Oh, and did I mention my amazing new Gravity 2? I got my new baby just a few weeks ago, and found my long lost ipod soon after! Yay, nothing like electronics to add some complication!
Honestly, these are all good things, but hey. Who knows? Finding my ipod might lead to my demise. ;)

Nice joke.

You know what's hilarious? When a friend, a friend I think knows me, has the gull to say I couldn't understand what they're talking about. Understand what, depression? Anger? Parent problems? Ha. Funny.
I know what it's like to lose someone. I also know what it's like to want to die, to want to hurt myself because I don't see a way out. I understand that murderous rage that makes you want to beat whoever crosses you into a pulp. So when a friend acts like I'm naive and don't know jack about the unhappier aspects of life, you insult me. My experiences have taught me and helped me to grow. By saying those things you don't acknowledge that pain and my growth because of it. Think twice before you judge me by my cover, because, obviously, you don't know jack either.